The light inside of me

Searching for so long
Idk where to belongs
Why does it hurts in my lungs
Fuck i am not wrong
Ik i'm strong
But i keep complaining
Please stop blaming(me 4 that)
And idk why the light inside (of me)
Is so dark i can't see anything and i
Am diving in the abyss no it won't fit my habits

I won't google it
Search my screen in the backyard
Yeah it's like a game of card
But it's not good to fit
Now tell me who i have to defeat

4 so long i've been thinking of death
I've been trying to hold my breath
But there nothing more sad then that
Maybe u have to continu breathing to sea that

I won't google it
Search my screen in the backyard
Yeah it's like a game of card
But it's not good to fit
Now tell me who i have to defeat

I've for so long
I've been searching why am i alive
Why am i
Alive
Why
Alive :)