Worst Year of My Life

Started out okay
Splashed in the pool at midnight
I didn't get a New Years kiss but I still got the guy I liked
So, that was cool, until he left
And then it took me seven freakin' months to get over that

Looking back, I can't count all the times
I made a friend, and then I played pretend
Tried to change myself to be what they liked
So, now I'm here, everything is clear in hindsight
I don't wanna remember everything that happened
But I know for sure, it was the worst year of my life

I was met with an ocean of tears and pain
I don't know how to swim, so I ran away
I wouldn't call myself weak but I'm not that strong
I thought I had it figured out but I was so wrong

Chased too many people that didn't care
Made magic out of things that weren't there
I can't count how many time I cried
This was the worst year of my life

I spent my time pretending that I had no feelings
I ran so long but only got so far
Until I ended up back with the same scars
Just like a puppet I was under someone else's control
I wish someone would see the real me
The girl that even I didn't know

I called the Suicide Hotline because I wanted to die
But there's no time for death when you've got people to impress
I pulled myself together, left the house, never been better

I was met with an ocean of tears and pain
I don't know how to swim, so I ran away
I wouldn't call myself weak but I'm not that strong
I thought I had it figured out but I was so wrong

Chased too many people that didn't care
Made magic out of things that weren't there
I can't count how many time I cried
This was the worst year of my life

And now it's over
Watch the dark times wash away, let it all go down the drain
And now I know this; If i can make it through that pain, I can make it through anything

I was met with an ocean of tears and pain
But now I know how to swim, I won't run away
Sometimes I'm gonna feel weak, don't mean I'm not strong
I don't need to have it figured out, it's okay to get it wrong

Stop chasing the people that just don't care
Don't have to make up magic, it's already there
And you know, it feels so good to cry
You learn and you grow
You just gotta keep living your life