Why Would I?

[Intro]
Lately all I'm asked is Austin
Where the fucks that real shit?
That shit I fell in love with
When you spoke I used to feel it
But lately all you talk about's
How you the fucking greatest
Dawg we get it, you been making moves
But why the fuck you changing?

[Chorus]
Why would I wanna think back to all of the shit that went wrong?
Why would I wanna be thinking 'bout all of the shit that I lost?
Why would I wanna get deep, my wounds are soon to be scars
Right now I'm just covered in scabs, but you want me to pick 'em off

[Post-Chorus]
If I fuck around and I let loose then these mother fuckers gon' pray
If I fuck around and open old wounds watch all the skies turn gray
For a kid who barely even had food there was so much on my plate
Had a lot to prove with not a lot to lose only Lord knew I'd be straight

[Verse 1]
Honestly I hate talking 'bout my past
Even if it's what got me here
I would bottle up everything I felt for so many years
Then it got severe
I would pray to never see another day
I'd pray to be the one Lord'll take
Just to get the fuck away from everything
'Cause I was dying slow and there was no escape
Nobody could ever relate to my state of mind
'Cause ain't nobody understood where I came from
Always knew I was different
I knew nobody would get it
But mother fuckers was treating me like I'm plain dumb
I never had a way to cope and all I needed was some hope
I was drowning no one threw me a rope
And was part of a broken family that was broke

[Chorus]
Why would I wanna think back to all of the shit that went wrong?
Why would I wanna be thinking 'bout all of the shit that I lost?
Why would I wanna get deep, my wounds are soon to be scars
Right now I'm just covered in scabs, but you want me to pick 'em off

[Post-Chorus]
If I fuck around and I let loose then these mother fuckers gon' pray
If I fuck around and open old wounds watch all the skies turn gray
For a kid who barely even had food there was so much on my plate
Had a lot to prove with not a lot to lose only Lord knew I'd be straight

[Verse 2]
Spent my whole life trying to escape the bad
But they all trying to bring it back to me
There's got to be a reason maybe I just need to think
Why they keeping asking me?
I understand people go through the worst things
And when I show 'em I relate then the verse speaks
Way louder but my past was the worst me
But no one seems to give a fuck that it hurts me
Imagining sitting thinking all the time
'Bout the worst times of your entire life
That state of mind that you had then
You have to channel back to sit down and write
That's the side no one sees shit don't come for free
I know but I pay the price
'Cause in the end we'll be better off and pasts gone
But I live it twice

[Chorus]
Why would I wanna think back to all of the shit that went wrong?
Why would I wanna be thinking 'bout all of the shit that I lost?
Why would I wanna get deep, my wounds are soon to be scars
Right now I'm just covered in scabs, but you want me to pick 'em off

[Post-Chorus]
If I fuck around and I let loose then these mother fuckers gon' pray
If I fuck around and open old wounds watch all the skies turn gray
For a kid who barely even had food there was so much on my plate
Had a lot to prove with not a lot to lose only Lord knew I'd be straight (yeah)

[Chorus]
Why would I wanna think back to all of the shit that went wrong?
Why would I wanna be thinking 'bout all of the shit that I lost?
Why would I wanna get deep, my wounds are soon to be scars
Right now I'm just covered in scabs, but you want me to pick 'em off

[Post-Chorus]
If I fuck around and I let loose then these mother fuckers gon' pray
If I fuck around and open old wounds watch all the skies turn gray
For a kid who barely even had food there was so much on my plate
Had a lot to prove with not a lot to lose only Lord knew I'd be straight (yeah)