Reflection

Ive been out here just reflecting
Since the day you left
Thinking how i held ya hand
Til ya last breathe
All them times we used to argue
Now i feel regret
Like can i turn the hands of time
And tell you the best
Im sorry for those times
You felt so unappreciated
Please forgive me for my sins
In all those situations
I just wanna see yo face
When i finally make it
I just wanna face
When i
Look
We only lose parents twicе
And this my first time
I googled rituals to get you anothеr lifeline
This pain im feeling now
Gon last for a lifetime
But i can't lose myself
My son gon need the stars to shine
But Id be lying
If i tell everything was fine
Bottom line im not
Im suicidal
Please give me back my pops
Im scared to look up at the time
And I see its 8 o clock
I just break down into tears
When I realize that you not

I realized you never coming home
Man this some bullshit
I really thought we had some more time
I realized you never coming home
Man this some bullshit
I really wish we had some more time
I realized you never coming home
Man this some bullshit
I really thought we had some more time
I realized your never coming home
Man this some bullshit
I really wish we had some more time

Ive been drinking Ive been smoking
Tryna numb the motions
When you look into my eyes
Youll see my soul is broken
Please dont test me
All this anger
Left my heart is frozen
I feel the lost so lost
Its getting kinda hard to focus
So surreal
Got me feeling like a bad dream
2 weeks ago
We was laughing while the movie streamed
I wish that i can bring you back here
By any means
I wish that i can bring you back here
Look
I still can't believe that my father
Really dead and gone
Im closed minded to the fact
Your never coming home
I still feel like ima hear you
On the holidays
I still feel like ima see you
Up the driveway
Hail mary
Hail mary
Hail mary
My depressions deadly
My mama got to take some sleeping pills
Just to go to sleep
Im scared to look up at the time and see the clock
I just break down into tears
When I realize that you not

I realized you never coming home
Man this some bullshit
I really thought we had some more time
I realized you never coming home
Man this some bullshit
I really wish we had some more time
I realized you never coming home
Man this some bullshit
I really thought we had some more time
I realized your never coming home
Man this some bullshit
I really wish we had some more time

Watch over me
Watch over me
Watch over me
Watch over me
I say
Watch over me
Watch over me
Watch over me
Watch over me
I say