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Sometimes I'm random
Some say
Might as well embrace it
Maybe someday
Sometimes I'm awkward
Is that alright?
Can I borrow your time
Lets grab a bite
My therapist is useless
Can't you see
She just let me talk
While she looks at me
Kind of like
You're doing now
I feel like I
Should take a bow
But what about
My medical past
Why you ask me that?
You gon' make me laugh
No health insurance
So I'm a nut
Should have had all this checked out
I need drugs and such

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Need drugs and such
Need drugs and such

Prozac, Xanax whatever works
Makes life little simpler
Be less a jerk
By the way how much is your brunch
I'll get the tab since I'm out to lunch
Curtains close, lights come down
Everybody goes home but I stay around
I know half of me
Just floats around
Somewhere with half my genes
Like lost and found
Me and my father never spoke two words
No hello no goodbye
That shits absurd
And I never blame
My fears on him
But its hereditary that I run from them

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That I run from them
Run from them

Moved to NY
Ten years ago
Now five year olds are fifteen so I'm feeling old
Have I really reached my goals?
Still renting and still poor, guess that's a no
Student loans kicking my ass
Repeat student loans kicking my ass
I only eat meat
Only dead carcasses for me

When the lights go out I see the dark
I hold myself real tight scared of the dark
Sometimes my eyelids stick lost in sleep
Strain to wake up death by defeat

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Death by defeat
Death by defeat
Death, death, death
Death by defeat