Masquerade

All these secrets in my head
Will keep on playing on repeat
Till the day I’m dead
I’ll be so gone I can’t even stand
I’m trying so hard to be a better man
But I don’t know if I can

Something inside me
Keeps raging and fighting
I can’t keep on hiding
I’m losing my sense of self

Where is my heart
Why do I hide my face
Every word that I say
Lies at the masquerade
Why is the truth
Buried so far inside
Every days a new lie
I was always
Wasting my own time

Searching for peace
I can’t bеlieve
That therе’s something left to salvage inside me
I can’t stand the fact that I can leave
This constant fight with my sobriety
I need something so I can sleep

I fucking hate the sight
Of my own face
I’ve left myself down
I feel the weight tonight
Of my mistakes
I’ve let myself drown

Where is my heart
Why do I hide my face
Every word that I say
Lies at the masquerade
Why is the truth
Buried so far inside
Every days a new lie
I was always
Wasting my own time

Where am I now?
And I can’t see
I’m drowning myself
In this apathy
It’s getting darker and
I am losing sleep
This shell I’m in
Doesn’t feel like me
Oh no this doesn’t feel right
And I’m losing myself
And I’m losing sleep at night