Married in a War

[Verse 1]
One here, too much, three faded
Forgetting what I already restated
Shit ain't black and white, your eyesight just degraded
If it is I'm appropriate and you appropriated
Man with the plan, A+ graded
You can see the blueprint
In my fucking backpack
Bitch I am the student
Potential I pack Pacquiao with every movement
Move aside
Tongue is on the loose
You don't watch your mouth
Like you got the juice
Petty in your pout
I'ma run you out
Niggas wanna talk like they high they really down
I'm too in the cut, wearing way thin
I feel like thе plot of ice I always put my faith in
No care for my lung, throw another еighth in
Outside while the ne'er-do-wells stay on nathan
Big bad turn taking thinking that I lost it
I know why I bent them corners I know what it costed
Too ashamed to admit that yours truly caused it
I'd get into why if we had a better rapport and you weren't such a cornball
Jabbing at my journal, jettison the entry
Overthinking like "you better do a better job of better jobbing"
Before your temper gets you piping up and cheddar bobbing
I'm bunny rabbiting off
Funny habiting off

[Chorus]
Always getting the ball rolling, always done trying again
Dying in your eardrum, hello-y no more
Halo above my wonder wandering around the storm
I still love the thunder and the rain less than before
Ring around excuses, we got married in a war
They all keep me useless like I'm open to the option
Overthinking backwards throwing the wind at my caution
Learning how to hate me less

[Verse 2]
And you can only do what you can, until you can't
Handle how you going through with the plan, will you plant
Firm-footed from the leap or break every limb when you land
I don't trust myself to not, do the latter when I stand
Now that I quit not needing a thing, not the other Lu enough
It's always the shit that's never difficult for you to love
Ain't really the demon that scare me it's the recruitment of
Recommend not believing him saying shit is fine
I don't wanna hear what he has to say when I hit his line
I reckon it's risky-route help where I'm yeeting the dice
At the money store buying time and not reading the price
I been listening to him for so long that I need the advice
Same panic at the same cost, feed me it twice
I know the slope slippery but I speed on the ice
Crippling me at the core but it's sweet on the eyes
Every day the same day summoning the havoc
Dark days make the papermate look like a half brick
Too scattered for praised, dodging help and guidance
Twenty blind in the haze feeling like a maverick
How the fuck am I stuck once opportunity widens
How the fuck am I drowning but I'm thirty Poseidons
In the way of myself sabotaging in silence
I think bout it and play thirty of the smallest violins

[Chorus]
Always getting the ball rolling, always done trying again
Dying in your eardrum, hello-y no more
Halo above my wonder wandering around the storm
I still love the thunder and the rain less than before
Ring around excuses, we got married in a war
They all keep me useless like I'm open to the option
Overthinking backwards throwing the wind at my caution
Learning how to hate me less