Losing Patience

I was looking forward to this day for so long
I had it all planned out
I was hoping it'd all work out
I was losing patience
You know it's never been my best trait
Counting minutes, hours, counting days

Then it dawned on me
Unpredictabilty
I told myself everything's just fine
You worry too much, it's gonna eat you alive

I was looking forward to this day for so long
I had it all planned out
I was hoping it'd all work out
Will it all work out

Now I feel exposed
Like a black light on the wall in a darkened room
All the dirt appears
You can see my fears
I don't want to let my guard down

You know I never had the feeling
That you would prey on my insecurities
You know I never had the feeling
That you would prey on these insecurities I have

Why is this wait taking so long
Counting minutes, hours, counting days
I'm losing patience

Don't think this means I'm walking away
I won't let fear get the best of me
Now it's up to me
I wouldn't change a thing
(DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY)