In Pain

Pills weed coke getting higher than an asteroid
Sex money liqour trying to fill this empty void
Cause the past he lived left himself  destroyed
He had been robbed of off everything that he enjoyed
He had been stripped of his dignity
Lost everything in his vicinity
Resorted to sin and he
Drowned himself into a bottle of gin you see
He wanted to be recognized for who he was and not who he used to be
Ddnt want respect nor immortality
But he faced one technicality
That was the emptiness he felt inside
The hopelessness he tried to hide
The pain he felt when his mother died
The tears he shed every time he cried
The guilt he felt every time he lied
But he would always put that to the side
Look down and say everything is alright
Even with victory no where in sight
Stood there and tried to fight
Stood there looking for a light
With a gaping hole in his chest
He turned to everyone to wish them the best
Saw his own reflection and said where's the rest
As his history was left to manifest
Got into this life  as if he was a fucking guest

Doing the wrong things
Forgetting his pains
Numbing his brain
Just not to go insane
Codiene cacoain containin his brain unable to maintain his mental state having a migraine inhaling propane and blocking his pulmonary vein
Envisioning shit in 3D
Wanting to record a CD
Not having a degree
A wanna be
So sad but he
Keeps on falling of the tree gee

Depression anger anxiety what he feels when he looks at the rain
Cutting burning choking what he does to forget the pain
Cause the life he's living seems to have no gain
He must be Abel and the world is Cain
His heart is weak and his voice is faint
But he still puts on a happy face like fake pastel and paint
And pretends to be a joyous saint
While in reality he can't
Deal with the pressure but it's too late
He already has a set date
To walk through that golden gate
He sealed his fate
Now he sits and waits
While he debates
Others insinuate
It's not the time or place
To exercise saving grace
I know they look at you with distaste
But I assure you you haven't been misplaced
Just hold on everything will be great
Just don't fall for the bait
Cuz you got yourswlf a big check mate
But after that they hit you with a checkmate
Dont
Love yourself and what you're living
Dont be driven, by shit that fucks your fate to heaven
Before it's too fucking late
Just hit that blunt and chill with your mates and your fucking dates

Doing the wrong things
Forgetting his pains
Numbing his brain
Just not to go insane
Codiene cacoain containin his brain unable to maintain his mental state having a migraine inhaling propane and blocking his pulmonary vein
Envisioning shit in 3D
Wanting to record a CD
Not having a degree
A wanna be
So sad but he
Keeps on falling of the tree gee

Silence tears blood all the things that fell
Knives rope chairs all the things to the side as he wrote his tale
Cause the life he lived felt like hell
He was encaged call it jail
He had a future but oh well
I guess nobody saw he cracked like the liberty bell
As he hoped his song would sell
He lost himself
In his room he called a cell
That was his final resting ground
Now everybody wishes he was still around
Their life was turned upside down
The second they found out he drowned
Reading the letter repeating it's too late to cry now
You didn't care bout me when I was alive so don't raise an eyebrow
Dont even say wow
You messed up my life look at me now
Staring as he lay there lifeless
Realizing all life is priceless
Wondering why he had to go like this
I was there that's why I had to fucking recite this