Heartbroken Teenager

I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn’t call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close
Not even a little bit
Not even at all

We had our ups and our downs
But now you're just never around
Without you I never feel safer
’cause I'm a heartbroken teenager
I loved you with all of my heart
But then everything fell apart
Without you I never feel safer
'cause I'm a heartbroken teenager

We had our ups and our downs
But now you're just never around
Without you I never feel safer
'cause I'm a heartbroken teenager
I loved you with all of my heart
But then everything fell apart
Without you I never feel safer
'cause I’m a heartbroken teenager

What happened with you
What happened with us
It seems like now you don’t give a fuck
What happened to forever together my love
I can feel myself drifting to heaven above
'cause when you left I was lost with words
You’re feelings were fading
My heart was in hurts

You said you feel worthless
You said you feel stessed
I tried talking to you
But you said I can't help
When you told me that shit
I felt like I died
'cause I was you're rider
Always by your side
But now that you’re gone
I'm still confused why
But I don't mean to shit
My god, tears I hope they cry

You were like the same dog to my lead
Without your here I don't really eat
I'm losing myself and I'm losing some sleep
I'm dying and dying till my wrists can cut deep
Man I'm done with this shit
I'm done with the pain
I feel your heart fading away from my brain
I already feel like I'm going insane
I am never the same whenever I hear your name

Oh shit happens in life
All I feel is the tip of a knife
I'm not even mad
Won't say fuck you
'cause girl in the end
I still love you

We had our ups and our downs
But now you're just never around
Without you I never feel safer
'cause I'm a heartbroken teenager
I loved you with all of my heart
But then everything fell apart
Without you I never feel safer
'cause I'm a heartbroken teenager

You don't understand
You really a blessing
My love for you is too much of a session
I gave you all of my heart and attention
But now I'm back on my fucking depression
Yea I get that shit happens
I am very sorry for all of my actions
I wanted to give you all of the passion
But I fucked things up
Because of my actions
I wanna go back
To when things were alright
Not crying in pain to you every night

I miss seeing your name on my phone
Without you here
I am truely alone
I miss walking you home
It's harder to focus when your internet is on
I miss hearing your voice on facetime
I miss the feeling of you of being mine
I don't even know what I want to feel
All I know I know is that what had was real
I would do anything for you to be here
My heart will never and ever will heal
I get that shit's tough
I guess you are crazy when you are in love
You're already happy
You're already calm
But just understand that I will never move on

We had our ups and our downs
But now you're just never around
Without you I never feel safer
'cause I'm a heartbroken teenager
I loved you with all of my heart
But then everything fell apart
Without you I never feel safer
'cause I'm a heartbroken teenager