Happy Fathers Day

Happy Father’s Day
You say I only write about the bad things, say i can’t remember the good things, say i couldn’t know or remember all that bad , said i was too young. Yes i got a good imagination, you say I’m still writing about old stuff, Yes i aint got over it yet . he don’t like how what i write make him look he ain’t shit. Like he ain’t raised his kids ,like he don’t love us still, guess I shouldn’t write the truth, guess I shouldn’t write how i feel the way i grew up, the way i want . but now, guess i shouldn’t make him look like he aint nothin but some sperm donor some dude. He say he tired of not being the hero in my poems i say me too. I write what i know he don’t like the memories he left me with either. Don’t like being reminded of his faults, but i look in the mirror everyday got his face. What that make me? I say how im spose to escape. He say you bitter , i say that’s what happens when you leave and ain’t got nothin when you come back. I say where i’m from that shit hurts. He say you ain’t gon be successful i say.. You make sure i that and even if i am, you aint got shit to do with that either he say, i bought you ice cream once took you to the movies a few times made you dinner played you in taking that time, remember, remember i came to your track meet once, that one time you played football, remember i met your girlfriend once...twice….maybe three times remember i bought that one book for that one class when you was in college that one time, remember i came to your graduation but at was at your wedding , remember we danced? Remember? I say you show up to be seen to get praise and glory that don’t belong to you damn, i must be ungrateful needing more than one book, help paying off these student loans all you’ve done shit guess i shouldn’t eat for shit not that shoulder when i got that divorce when i almost got raped when i broke my ankle playing those sports , guess i was only hungry once , can’t watch the same movie for the rest of my life, eat only one flavor of ice cream, but i heard baskin and robbins got 32. Guess ion need no talking to on how not to get hurt by all these girls. You the best lesson . Yes when you left your hurt was enough for the both of us. Yes you right. Act like you ain’t do nothin. Guess i ain’t christian . Guess i can’t get over it . i’m so mean, talk to you so bad, treat you so funny, yes when i grew up without you i took you from me. Yes without you i’d have nothing to write about so thank you, for teaching me how to make nothing out of something the way you raised me .