Eventually

[Verse 1: Arjay]

Had to fucking scrap a lot of material
From the project cuz I had to see it through
To the end, in a matter that I would've deemed as good
Made sure that the themes were aligned perfectly; my feelings too
Cuz my passion ain't been burning like a sea of fuel
But once it's ignited it be pretty difficult to stop
Least that's my belief and I've seen no one similar with thoughts
Such as mine, cuz I tend to space out chilling in the block
As I'm getting older I naturally bring it up a notch
Time has been... like a bullet traveling by so quick
Waiting for no person and that fact is making no sense
My mind has been tested and it somehow remains open
Maybe cuz I was born a threat while others seem to pose it
As in they are falsely represented
That's just one of many things that I am constantly resenting
Another is how everybody don't bother to respect yet
They're waiting that reaction like a lobby full of chemists
Yuh, sick and tired of the same shit
Seems like the memories of good old days are fading
There is nowhere on this Earth where my trust could be placed in
Except for myself but I would wanna see that change quick
Music is my creation
That I use to vent because all I have seen these day's been
People attaching like vines soon as my confidence is raising
Feeding off from what they can until I crash onto the pavement
See everyone has got a downfall
I question some things that I have found dawg
In the face of adversity their proud talk
Disappears like raining exposure on some ground chalk
That facade, I intend to fully reveal it
Everyone who's got to keep up their stupid appearance
Yeah y'all see your ways when the truth's in the clearing
But you're so caught up in in a lie that you'd prolly mute what you're hearing
And throughout the years
There's been a different surrounding of peers
Hardly anyone that sticks around
My homies ask me what do I think about
And I don't ever reply
I do that cuz I don't think they're ready for my
Ideals; but see my excellent pride
Is the thing that I ain't ever setting aside
Cuz it keeps me focused and a capable
Recently I feel that I've taken hold of the strangest role
And everyone is just an actor slowly degrading hope
The traits about me they have come to know are debatable
I'm more aware and it's that change that defines me
The darkness is spreading like a stain on a white tee
Dreams are pretty far and to go chasing em blindly
Ain't advised like following the lane of a crime spree
Because failure is surely inevitable
Unless your actions deem otherwise and start affecting the globe
Unfortunately that hardly will get done
Especially when people only call for attention
Instead of looking around to notice this cold environment
This some shit I'm thinking almost every moment I am in
And if a bitch only wants to just act dumb
Then I simply keep on moving on to the next one
There's certain crowds who I deem unfit to handle the truth
They wouldn't stick to their story if they had a gallon of glue
Somehow things keep on repeating throughout the patterns I view
Meaning their old behaviors are likely to come back in a few
Whether or not they trynna improve their ridiculous figure
My heart is colder than a kid who is ditched in the winter
Arjay's working on some sort of a hidden agenda
And there's barely any claims saying they missing a nigga
If I ever come back then
I wouldn't be the same cuz all the issues I combat with
Made me become stronger so that one day I could access
All the wisdom I got now spreading to the masses
Still ain't acquired balance
Just witness more bull, no flooring of a palace
Guess I'll just ignore it all
Not giving a fuck is part of my protocol
That's what I was taught
Anyone's quick to judge at someone's slightest drop
If something ain't part of my business
Yo screw it, I'll do what I want in a minute
Abide by the rules I consider meant for me
It's difficult to witness all the rancor and just let it be
The world would be a much better setting see
If everyone would just become like me
Eventually