Death Wish

[Verse 1] Rittz

Passed a dead cat on the road side
It reminded me of me
I envied it so much I wish that I could lie in peace
Instead I gotta wake up in this house with no AC
But can't say shit about it cause they let me stay for free
And I love my girlfriend but everyday's the same routine
We cool then we get drunk at night and say the same rude things
Then the jokin turns to arguing
Arguments always end up physical
I think I might've hit her way too hard again
I'm such a fuckin pussy
She always wants to push me
And she knows how stressed I am about my music
How it puts me in the mood
I'm always feeling futureless and ill
I wish I had a pistol I would use it on myself
I used to joke about this shit but now it doesn't sound that farfetched
Life sucks what if our death is somewhat better I guess you'll never know until you're dead
But everyday my minds moving closer to the edge

[Hook]

I got a death wish
I wish it'd take me away
I got a death wish
Think about it every day
I got a death wish
It's too late for me to kneel and pray
I got a death wish
Got a death wish

[Verse 2]

I saw a dead dog on the road side, it made me shed a tear
I envy it somewhat I wish my soul could disappear from my body
Would you fuckin listen to me I'm a baby
So many got it worse they probably think I got it gravy and would trade me
The problem that I got with me is me
I look inside the mirror when I'm alone and all I see
Is an ugly motherfucker who's starting to show his age
Who ain't got shit to show for all his days
Who thinks that he's ?? his mistakes
Afraid that he won't cut it as a rapper
So he fades every time he takes the stage
When I really think I'm wasting my time
I'm just too normal of a guy
The more I try to look important the more I see how boring I really am
My boys they don't give a damn
I wonder if there's enough weight support on the ceiling fan
For me to tie a cord and hang from it
I know I seem dramatic but I know my day's coming

[Hook]

[Verse 3]

I know this song is real depressing let me use this verse to clarify
Don't take my words literally I'm really scared to die
But I know there's some out there that maybe can identify
Maybe I touched up on some shit that they have been inside
Relationships and family problems common across the board
Of course money even the rich could use a dollar more
Especially now everyone I know is unemployed
Some made mistakes in the past they gettin punished for it
Some shit that only you know can eat you up inside worse than any words from any person any lies
We were told
We've all been depressed from time to time
Needing hope
Some worse than others they seein no
Other options
But life is too precious for you to be contemplating tossing it away because your problems
Honestly I don't know if I wrote this verse to relate it to you
Or I'm scared I said too much and I'm afraid that I ??

[Hook]