[Verse 1]
17 years that I didn't have a father
That was 17 years that I didn't have a mother
I spent 13 years in a basement with my brother
If you dig a little farther there's a story to uncover
I got 17 fears that I've faced that you would run from
That was 15 years that you had my daddy locked up while my mamma's hooked on product she can't even get up off of
And it fits like it's a glove
When shit gets sour I just run
And I can never get enough
But I can never give enough
So I just feel like giving up
Rip this pad of paper up
Flip my middle finger up
And I could never give a fuck
Outta luck
And I wipe my shoulders off
Only say this outta love
All the days you weren't involved
All the times you were gone and you never thought to call
You didn't think of me at all
Always thought it was my fault
And now I'm alone in this room with my fist against the wall
[Verse 02]
Open up this cupboard and I stare into this bottle
And my heart is really hurting while my body feels so hollow
It's my pride that I will swallow
And I've always been a leader never been the type to follow
And I might be here today, I can not promise tomorrow
I just wish that I could call you
And my actions speaking louder than my words cause I just lost you
I've been such and asshole though
I just keep on nagging you
Telling you I love you while my lies they keep on dragging you
And I miss you and I love you and I kiss you and I hug you
And I diss you and I hate you and you hate me so it's fuck you
And I don't know like what to do
Like why'd I fall in love with you
I'm pushing and I'm shoving you
I'm slowly losing touch with you
I miss when I was touching you
You make me so uncomfortable
Like why'd I even fuck with you
But this is shit that love will do
And now you think Im crazy
I'll just keep on making music and never let it phase me