Blacked Out House

I cannot come and stay with non of yall Iv been walking around waiting to get killed lately I’ve been feeling like I’m drained Iv been on my shit since they left I don’t fuck with them, lights dim down in the silence, real close to tell em what’s that sound not yet let me go I don’t wanna fucking die right now I got a girl and she’s keeping me proud right now, let me flow cut the mothafucking lights down on my own in the blacked out house that’s where I belong singing songs for the people who’ve been struggling for far to long am I really that evil am I wrong joshy

Lost in my soul, I feel my demons watching me, when I look around, I smile when I’m with my girl, now I’m throwing again, and I’m going down in the air, I’m drowning in here, in the midnight yeah, I’m throwing in here, if I have a mental breakdown I’ll get laughed at yeah, yeah ima drown in here, I don’t know what to do, I’m stuck in my head, overthinking everyday hoping that I was dead, but I ain’t letting suicide get to me, cause there’s kids listening to this, and I don’t wanna say ending it is okay, but my thoughts are getting to me and I don’t know what to do, I just wanna end it but I stay for my girl