In “Show Runner 99,” Rutter contemplates his feelings about his newfound success as an artist, wrestles with imposter syndrome, and expresses doubt about his ability to steer his life in the future.
In April 2020, at the start of the COVID-19 pandemic, Rutter released a cover of Corrine Bailey Rae’...
[Verse 1]
My character's breaking
Thought I had this memorized
It doesn't help that I'm wasted
With these lights right in my eyes
Why's it still feel like I'm taking
Center stage from someone else?
Why's it still feel like I'm faking
When I'm starring as myself?
[Verse 2]
Got three more hours back from LA
And my Nissan's breaking down
Grab a replacement on the way
Got money for it now
Welcome to spotlit vacation
Where the silence grows like trees
I'm fielding congratulations
While I'm choking on the leaves
[Chorus]
Should I keep on searching?
(Is this really all there is? I try)
I'm trying to turn in
(What if I already did?)
To I
I
I'm trying
I'm trying
[Verse 3]
They say the mind's a good servant
As a master, it is fucked
Convinced it's gotta be perfect
No such thing as good enough
You got a head full of what-ifs
And it's keeping you afloat
And you've got better days coming
Doesn't mean they're tomorrow
[Chorus]
Should I keep on searching?
(Is this really all there is? I try)
I'm trying to turn in
(What if I already did?)
To I
To I (If I already did, if I already did, I'm scared that I already did)
To try (I'm scared that I already did, I'm scared that I already did)
To try (I'm scared that I already did, I'm scared that I already did)
Show Runner 99 was written by Jack Rutter.
Show Runner 99 was produced by Jack Rutter.
Ritt Momney released Show Runner 99 on Fri Aug 27 2021.
On his Instagram, @rittmomney, Jack Rutter said the following:
“Since the put your records on craziness I’ve felt pretty disoriented and unsure of what’s ahead… this song is basically about trying not to be defined by a single moment in ur life, no matter how big. The search for self goes on whethe...