Count To Ten

My mother told me to know wrong from right
It's gettin' easier to tell a lie
I go to therapy to stay alive
(R-E, responsibility, R-E, responsibility)
And now I'm livin' on my own, I guess
My father tells me that we all are blessed
Thank God the beating's quiet and in my chest
(R-E, responsibility, R-E, responsibility)

There's nothin' sacred between you and I
That hasn't happened at least a thousand times
Swear for me, baby, not the emotional kind
So fuckin' lonely that at times I can't think
But I'm not cryin' for your company
I only move between the crowds and sing

So close your eyes and maybe count to ten
I'll disappear and I'll come back again
That's how I always leave my things to end
My life has turned into some masquerade
I can't keep up with every role I play
I lock the door and stay at home most days

I'm in a suit and tie against the wall
With a pocket full of Adderall
Just feed me lies, I'm not responsable
I sing a song right as you fence me in
With every cliché that doesn't make sense
Maybe it's not [?] what I need is

My love is not an ocean
I can't hold your heart in my hand
You're not the moon, or the stars, or the sky
Okay?