​bargaining/compromise

Is it worth all the ringing?
Is it worth all the pain?
Is it worth the pretending? The fear? The disdain?
Is it worth it to imagine what I'm feeling won’t last?
Is it hard to adjust to the regrets of the past?
Is it really still working, the thin, weak facade?
Can I really still maintain my emotional guard?

My costume is tearing
My patience is wearing
My ears begin to bleed as I feel the monster staring
And the fear converts to anger as I begin to see red
And the anger turns to sadness as my stomach fills with dread
And it feels like the agony will never еnd

But there's so much to see now, so much more to do
Thеre's no more time to be regretting how we made it through
The sun will keep on rising, and fading at dusk
So it’s worth the compromising just to see it come up
Perhaps there is more here than once it did seem
More joy to be discovered, more information to glean

The world will keep on spinning when I'm frowning or I'm grinning
When I'm surrounded or alone, when I'm praying or I'm sinning
So I've made my decision. No, I won't be playing victim
To the thoughts that keep on morphing and distorting my vision
This is where I take my final stand

So if you can, please take this bottle from my hand
Before I change my mind and sacrifice these new plans
I’ve tried this before, to put a bandage on this sore
But every time it starts to rain, it just falls back to the floor

Sometimes all it takes is some time and some patience
To heal and start again; to rearrange all the pieces
So you can say the world is biased to justify your compliance
But the ringing in my ears isn’t half as deafening as your silence
So I'll take my stand in an attempt to cure this cursed virus
So take my hand. Hold it till the end